
The Fray – You Found Me
I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, “Where you been?” He said, “Ask anything.”
Where were you, when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who’s ever known
Who I am, who I’m not and who I wanna to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me
The early morning, the city breaks
And I’ve been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve taking all I’m worth
Why’d you have to wait, to find me, to find me?
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In the song ‘You Found Me’ (thankfully for sceptical fans of their music, one of the most boring songs on the album), The Fray have performed the age-old trick of asking a question and then assuming that it has been answered by definition of it being asked. Let me explain.
Every believer, unless they’re die-hard fundamentalist crazy, goes through some period of doubt and uncertainty in their belief. And it is quite understandable as to why this should be so. The picture that the first verse paints of modern society (the ‘west’) is one where deities do not belong to nations, cultures or sects. Reformation has come and gone, and in the modern world different aspects of holy texts hold different weight even in the tightest of communities. One Nation Under God slides to the question of ‘which god’? The concept of a god is ‘all alone’, separated from the communal bonds that held it in place for so long (Paul’s understanding of how to spread these memes is surpassed by no-one else in history). Even deities end up alone in the end. Secularism is the starting point of modern education.
The chance meeting on the street shows the nature of modern belief: one-on-one. Mentioning ‘Amistad’ not only conjures up images of the modern notion of freedom of the individual (even, of course, choosing one’s own deity), but the Spanish word loosely means ‘friendship’. Religious belief now rests in the hands of the individual, and the social structures of church and family play less of a role in the formation of individuals than they ever have (not that it shouldn’t be even less – but that’s besides the point).
So when something terrible eventually befalls someone of faith – in this case, losing someone who knows you better than you know yourself – the famous problem of evil occasionally arises one way or another. What kind of loving, omnipotent deity can only offer ad hoc support, after the event? What comfort is there in knowing that you can lean back on faith, now that the worst has already come and past us by? God sure does work in mysterious ways.
But the question here is only one of method, not the deeper metaphysical one that has perplexed most pontificating creature from the early Greeks to us: the problem of consistency between the attributes of omniscience and infinite love. God = all powerful, not really caring enough to help? Or, God = all loving, but not powerful enough to help out? You all know the drill. Wow, tension.
But the chorus drones on and on with ‘you (presumably his god) found me’, and the opening line is the prominent ‘I found god’ (For anyone who knows the very basics of writing an essay, this means a lot). It was nice of him to stop by, but why did he wait so long? Oh, but a necessary condition of being able to question his methods of finding me is that he exists – I didn’t ask why he never found me, but why he’s so shit at it. Method becomes unimportant; God exists, otherwise I wouldn’t be able to question his methods of assistance in the first place.
Sigh. Catch 22: he exists if it seems he does, he exists if it seems that he doesn’t. The reason that it seems like god doesn’t exist sometimes is because god necessarily exists!
It’s not that this style of argument can’t work. For example, the proposition ‘I am using a sentence in English’ becomes necessarily true once asked: the very act of bringing this thought into existence makes its truth logically necessary.
The sleight of hand occurs when we move away from the serious question (the problem of evil) by an analysis of the attributes of the very being that is being called into question. This sort of ontological magic trick dogmatically presupposes that existence can be guaranteed not only without good reason (i.e. mysterious ways), but against the very evidence of pointless suffering that show its attributes to be seemingly conflicted. In the example cited above the individual’s act of thinking/saying presupposes the proposition’s necessary truth, but here, the only act involved is prior belief in a god, a stand-alone proposition that is devoid of any act but itself. Whereas in the first example the requisite is in the doing, the argument inherited from Anselm merely presupposes what it sets out to show. Questions of faith go unanswered, belief stands on its own head to show how tall it is.
It seems quite obvious to me why the ontological argument has only ever convinced people who are already convinced. But ‘just a little late’ is by definition too late for an all-loving, all knowing, all powerful deity.